ok so holidays so far have been in one word BORING.

oh the good thing is i watched 2012!!!it's quite a nice show,cried at some super sad parts,lots of action and no i dun believe the world's gonna end.

wanna go out so badlyy!!!!brenda and amira wait for me to be UNGROUNDED k!

i also wanna watch NEW MOON!!!omg it's coming out like in a few days and my mum say i cannot go out and watch-_-"...stupid,anyway i am so gonna watch it with my cousins,we are like twlight fans!right qisheng?haha=)

ok anyway everyday has been spent lazing around,'studyig',waking up and sleeping early.so dreading it.

i dun really know if i like him now,seems to have faded.good thing?bad thing?i dunno.

haha it was hilarious when i talked to him about the guy i like and he guessed who it was!how come adults are so smart?i'll never know.

anyway that's bout it for now.nothing interesting so not posting much.

TOODLES=D

Labels: holidays are supposed to be FUN

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camp's over and damn i miss it like hell.sleeping with the gals,my gosh the first thing i did yesterday when i got home was cry.i know it's stupid but i am not used to home now,not after 3 days with all of them.i miss camp,i miss them,i miss him.

FIRST DAY:
-got to church at 8am,I WAS EARLY!!!
-waited for the rest.got on the bus,headed to the place
-slacked.went to our dorms and put our bags
-found out our groups!i was with SAM,AMANDA,ALICIA,MEL,MICH,MARCUS,TED AND DYLAN.BEST GROUP LAH PLEASE=D
-headed to the hall,did some activities
-caught THEM SMOKING,can smell it cause i slept at the corner window and they were smoking directly below on the 1st
floor.
-played LOTS of games to earn soya beans,which was our point system.
-after that,SOMEONE had to go try steal the facil's bag and all our stuff was confiscated,my gosh,we were all like-_-"
-then showered,had more activities
-night reflection was awesome,sang songs,reflected,he cried,i was seriously in a dilemma,dunno whether to comfort him or
leave him...sigh
-after that we slacked more,went to bed at about 11 plus.

SECOND DAY:
-stupid guys,ask us to wake them up then they never,wake up at 8am,which was the time we were supposed to report.they
were the last to assemble please!
-stomach felt horrible,drank black tea,ate charcoal pill,me gosh,it was terrible.
-didn't do morning exrcise though=)
-had breakfast,did more activities
-this is the ONLY camp when the guys got to go into the girl's dorm and we into the boy's dorm,FOR ACTIVITIES of course
-then slacked somemore,oh ya we found out who was the gal that marcus likes=)
-ate lunch,showered,can't remember already.
-but i LOVED the prayer night,we reflected somemore and i talked to marcus and dylan and ted individually,i was very happy
that night,i felt so close to their real selfs whee there were no pretences,i found out dylan's sad story,ted's conflict and
marcus's gal.
-after that we our whole class chilled and talked till 11 plus.haha about 'OPERATION NIGHT ELF'=D
-i realised something that night

THIRD DAY:
-stayed up till 2 plus,woke u at 5am cause we were supposed to meet the guys and talk.
-we were given back our soya beans!
-AS USUAL they couldn't wake up so we went back to sleep from 5 plus to 7 plus.rush like mad and assembled downstairs.
-did morning exercise,ate breakfast,changed,did some activities
-played another set of games,this time it was interclass,we were against the 8.30 class,
-the games started off like shit cause another 2 guys from our class had to CHEAT,stupid lah
-then the other class were so hostile and aggressive against us ok.so annoying.
-but wtv we still won=).headed to the next game,dog and bone and later captain's ball.lost the first game,tied the second=(
-it was very fun,but i started to feel sad,cause it was the last day.
-had a bad stomach ache again,didn't eat lunch,packed up our stuff and brought everything down to the hall.
-chilled with the class,and my group won the whole competition!why?because the bag of soya beans that were given to us,
wasn't actually ours,haha but who cares=)
-everyone helped clean up and we got the boy's dorm,SOOO DIRTYYYY!!!
-got on the bus and headed back,sad sad day.
-wanted to go to macs but didn't=(

so that's our 3 day 2 night camp.
i dunno why he was giving all the wrong signs,he kept asking if i was amanda,smiling and being nice,then i find out he likes another gal-_-"...i dun like him,i was so scared by the way he was acting that i avoided him!


i miss them,i miss camp,not waking up with them beside me,
not eating with them and not taking walks after meals,
i miss talking with the guys
i miss everything
i realised that i miss talking to him
i think i like him.
urgh...now i'm confused,still not adjusted,still thinking,still waiting.

Labels: if i told u the truth, what would u say

Vanished in the air @ 8:48 PM


haha yesterday was funny,was taking a walk with sam,joash and my cuz rachel,and her cute frenchbull dog!=)
so they were talking bout a club event and i want to go but underaged.BUT joash said his fren can help me make an IC!haha ok i know i shouldn't be saying it out loud but it was all for fun.anyways i think i need to sew my mouth.SERIOUSLY.
so we were walking...

A:so joash!how to make FAKE IC?
S:oh yes amanda,tell the WHOLE WORLD!
A:i didn't mean to=(

J:i want to but a dog,my own dog,the other day a police brought a labrador and i want my own dog.
A:yea but don't you know that it's ILLEGAL TO EVEN KEEP A DOG LIKE A FRENCHBULL DOG IN OUR KIND OF HOUSE?
R:oh yes amanda now tell the WHOLE WORLD that we're keeping an ILLEGAL DOG!
A:i...i...sammy...***make a sad face***
S:i am so staying out of this.

then we went to my cuz's house to get a dvd...

J:amanda keep quiet!look at this...it's a PIRATED DVD.SHHHSSHHH!!!!
A:i'm not STUPID to tell the whole world what is ILLEGAL!
J&S:-_-"...

I MISS MY FRENS=((((


OMG OMG OMG CHURCH CAMP IS IN 2 FREAKING DAYS,CAN'T WAIT!!!I MISS ALL THOSE PP SO MUCHZ=(.i haven't seen them in like...dunno a few weeks?seems like forever!haha

sigh,i am so looking forward to church camp,i need a BREATHER.
get away from all this mess,
leave all those expectations of me,
have a life of my own,
love the way i live for once,
seriously,
even if it's just for 3 days and 2 nights,
i know it's gonna be the best part of this holiday.

Labels: now i wish i was in school

Vanished in the air @ 7:23 PM


here are some pics for the past week,

oh yesterday we went to the sports club and i ran ok!for half an hour with a lot of breaks of course=)
the scenery at the sports club is REALLY nice i swear.










































So after a whirlwind week of my mum ignoring me and dad shouting at my face,the have finally cooled down a bit.my mum's talking to me and i'm over the moon happy!!!!haha ok so childish but yea we're all ok now,just that every morning i have to force my butt out of bed by 9am then wash up then study.same routine but i shall try to follow,for now i have been waking up at the right time,bath right after i wake up and sleeping by 12am so their kinda ok,oh and i made mine and sam's bed!!!which my mum's happy about.thumbs up for me=D

sorry ten i cannot send u off,i didn't even get to go out with u one last time before i dun see u for 2 months..=(
i'm gonna miss u lah,stupid go and fly off,leave all of us here.sigh.say hi to ur parents for me k=).haha oh ya and u know what i want for thailand ah=p.i'm joking bout that guy part SERIOUSLY.haha luv u lots k and dun forget to send me pics!i'll see if i can pick u up next year,man that sounds super far...sigh,bye bitch=).haha and no u still can't call me minibitch=D

so anyway the extended studies are OVER.but i'm kinda sad,cause like i miss my class and i actually learnt stuff for SOME subjects,haha.yea so anyway now's the hols so i must push myself extra hard to study and catch up on this year's subjects!!

fuzzy where's our stuffss???clip!dvd!money!haha babe u better dun fly off to bali without notice ah!<3

Labels: finally a breather

Vanished in the air @ 9:42 AM


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that's how u can describe my life now,if u could call it a life actually.i wake up,go to school,by the way i LOVE to go to school now and i'm pretty darn upset that it's gonna end in 2 days cause school's where my troubles go away,where i can just sleep peacefully and where my friends are.

currently my mum is not talking to me,i think she's given up on us already,sad to say but yea.erm....sunday was bad,monday was worse.

ok even if we're not on good terms i still have to say happy b'day papa!

anyway my brothers are actually very insensitive to us,matt doesn't care bout anything bout himself and well,let's not go to joash.life sucks now,in my family i only have sam to rely on.i swear without her,i'd commit suicide in my current situation.

so yesterday my phoone got confiscated,and my dad used some really harsh words,i dun wanna sear anymore,i'm so tired of using that word already.every night i cry myself to sleep,seriously,or else i can't sleep,i wake up every morning with a spliting headache,a bad runny nose and swollen eyes.the hurt i feel is incomparable to anyone elses.u feel like ur worthless,u feel unloved,u feel pathetic,u feel hated,and to top it off,it feels like it doesn't matter if ur dead or alive.no i'm not thinking of dying now but i honestly can't see myself living with their attitude towards me.

life's unfair,especially to us.

i'm sorry if i've beeen drained of my energy lately,fuzz i'm sorry if u feel a bit awkward when i asked about amsyar today,i'm just really really upset and i can't think straight.i was sad yea,that i couldn't go out with u guys,like after we settled things out,i dun get the chance to hang out with u guys,i wanted to go out with u guys today but i guess i can't.i'm not angry with u dun worry,if i seem like last time,when i withdraw myself from the convo,it's cause of my family problems.sigh....i dunno what to do really,i'm just barely living one day at a time.so yea.i still luv ya hun so dun take my actions to heart now k?

oh and ten,thx for always being there,ur like a sisi nvr had,wait.....sammy ur still my bestest twin sis=).now a days,in school i just wanna rest and i think i'm the most comfortable around u,u dun ask qn or say anything but ur there and i feel very comforted by it.i'm gonna miss u when u go to phuket=(.

Labels: my head feels like splitting apart.

Vanished in the air @ 9:19 PM