ok so this weeek was alright....my ass.it's been awesome bvut it's been HELL.let me tell u why.

the good things were-

tuesday was promotion day so dun need to go school,went orchard with my cousin!!!she went to far east to check out stalls where she can sell her clothes.quite fun,but walk a lot,me and sam were finding stuffs for friday's halloween party!

wednesday was magic wok with the gals and then ten and amira came our house to watch the proposal!super funny and it was a time when i was truly comfprtable around them cause u know how sometimes it's uncomfortable?yea=).oh ya talked to anisa too,she caught me when i was leaving see...

thursday was....can't remember.oh ya!i think i went to my cousin's house and painted my nails today...not very sure though cause this week i went their house a lot.i got my dress from her for free too !cause she has a blogshop so she gice us some stocks=D.got a nice blouse too.i luv my cuz!!!

friday was AWESOME.ok firstly headed to fuzz house around 3 plus,put on some make up and waited for them to change so we could cab to brenda's house.urgh...some wierd experiences,i saw nicholas and james topless-_-".but wtv since they're both younger it doesn't matter,then ernie was dressed as a bunny,man she looked...like a playboy bunny so to speak=).me and sam were some masquerade cum phantom of the opera thing and fuzz was cleopatra=).so we were one of the first to rach,helped set up the deco and stuff.fuzz fell and bled real badly,me and sam gotta patch it up for her.AS USUAL.haha.
here are the other characters that came-
then brenda and wes were vampires,anisa was like bloody mary,tatty was satan's wife,yiting was a hot nurse,paige was th grudge thing,nat was a witch,vic was tinkerbell,ridzuan was scream,fai was helen of troy,then i can't remember cause got soo many!!!
so once everyone came we started the barbecue fire,then just as we got it to start,it started to pour!my gosh everyone was soaking wet,after i got wet i couldn't care so i just removed my shoes,walked around barefooted and barbecued in the rain.ot was the BEST EXPERIENCE this week!and since we were wet,me,sam,brenda and fai went swimming!!!me and sam were in our clothes mind you haha.luckily we got extra clothes=)so to sum it up.IT WAS AWESOME.
our class came,fuzz's housemates came,and our form teachers came!!!WE HAVE THE AWESOMEST,COOLEST,BESTEST FORM TEACHERS IN THE WORLD.YUPZZ.


so that was the good part.now the hell part.
TPC SUCKED.dun wanna elaborate,just say that now,my parents are OFFICIALLY sick of all my bad habits and my dad took some drastic measures.

this is what i had to do
-make a schedule for the whole holiday,
-so i planned one and i gotaa study EVERYDAY except sundays,
-gotta wake up at 9am everyday and sleep by 12am.
-BUT FOR DEC,i gotta wake up and sleep like during normal school days,which is some serious shit,thx to MR ZAIN LAH,tell my da that i'm always late and say that 'bad habits can be broken if u do it for 21 days straight'.seriously?i dun think so.
-my dad wants IMMEDIATE CHANGE
-i gotta bath after i wake up,gotta do thi and that.
-oh and i'm grounded.not surprising.

i counted and he freaking wants me to change 10 things about my life,which is retarded,what do u think i am?i'm a 15year old gal trying to get by without falling into the temptations that every teen faces and they dun see that.they only focus on my bad points like bad time management and not studying hard enough,but they dun see that i dun smoke,drink,take drugs or what stuff.i seriously can't stand this,they are pushing their daughter away so they shouldn't blame me for drifting apart from them...urgh wtv lah,gotta put up with their shit for a few more years till i can go work and not live off them.

so yea...that's what happened in these few days.drama drama drama.now my parents aren't ralking to me so i ain't talking to them,i've apologised too many times,this time they make the first move.

Labels: just some stuff i'm going through

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ok anyway today was well,seriously where we talked everything otu.ok fine sam did most of the talking for me cause she knows what i wanted to say but i just couldn't get it out everytime.anyways everything's almost fully settled and we came to the point and said that everyone has to make an effort to make it work or else it'll be the same problem.

meaning,we have to accept one another,u must like make evryone feel involved in the convo,and like eveyone just spends time with everyone else cause if one only spends time with another then others will feel left out right?so yes we shall all do our best and i am sure this small matter that was blown out of proportions and affected everyone the past few weeks,can be settled and we can all be besties again.

and for that point about best frens.i just wanted to say,i'm so happy that today happened.

Labels: today is a milestone for me

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the past few days was checking of scripts,failed bio,failed chem,failed A math.so far i have 2 F9s,1 E8.2 C6s,1 B4,1 B3....yes i'm screwed like hell.haha my L1R5 is gonna hit sky high i tell ya!!!

yesterday was stupid DC.oh well it wasn't as bad as i thought it'd be,but we still gotta see the councillor-_-"

i dun have anything much to say cause nothing much happened this week.oh ya that kinda confrontation didn't really work out,i dunno why but i just couldn't get any words out of my mouth,i tried,i really did but with everything so suddenly i just couldn't remember what to say.i'll try again soon.

i never meant for this to blow up either,it started as a small thing but i guess it just escalated.i'm not avoiding u or that thing,it's just so hard for me to talk about his,u know why right?i know,i want to clear this up as best as i can so we can be back to normal again,as best frens.that's how i want it to be.do you?u dunno how sad i've been by this,i dun want it to be like this,for it to be awkward,i miss u so much.

Labels: words worth a thousand tears

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last friday was outing with sam,brenda,ernie,amira...i think that's all.fai and ten were sick=(.went to fuzz's house,showered,picked accesories and stuff.headed to orchard cineleisure,watched imagine that,pretty funny.and I PIERCED ANOTHER 2 EAR HOLES!!!they r so pretty=).ignoring the fact that i kinda complained bout how painful it was.i dunno why sam and amira dun feel it,they have THICK SKINS i tell u!lol joking=).but that day sucked,my bro said some really hurtful stuff,shan't talk about it.

sat and sun was slacking and sleepin and eating and watching korean drama!!

monday amanda came over SECRETLY=).cause i didn't tell my mum and my dad wasn't aorund haa,so we played mahjong and badminton,now my body still aching,but i still love amanda=D.she's my best fren and i've known her for 9 freaking years!!!same school,same church and even though i dun go out much with her,if i have a problem,i can tell her anything<3

ok anywayyyyy.today was fun to the max ok!!!!!!woke up late,as usual=).met the gals at 12plus?watched 500 days of summer,i'm sorry but i'm too dense so cannot understand the mpvie haha=D.the gals who went were me,sam,ten,brenda,ernie,fuzz and fai!oh ya plus the 2 of the guys.supeerrrr wierrddd lahhh when i saw THAT one,the other one friendkier,nicer,the other one ah....urgghhhh,gives me the chills man lol.ohhh and i bought new sunglasses!supperr preetttyyy=)

so after the movie brenda and the guys left,the rest of us go shoppiing!!!haha fai and fuzz spent a gazillion dollars i tell u,but soon fai and ten left so me,sam,fuzz and ernie go far east where fuzz SHOPPED SOMEMORE.i see her shop,my wallet pain haha.so anyways i told ernie bout my problems with him....yea,she's a darling i tell u=)

today i thought i saw him but that's just a silly wish.he's still in aus,he's still so far away and i should just forget cause i'll only fall deeper.sigh...how do u know when u r over someone that ur not sure u still like?i'm confused.

im glad today was great=).but there were some wierdd stuufff,but i only told ten=d

some pics=)



















i dunno how to say it,i want to make it all disappear,i love u guys so much but it hurts to see everything like that.

Labels: i knew it was a dream, the day i thought i saw you

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i owe u an apology.a HUGE one.i never meant to hurt u,u know that.it was exaggerated but that's what i felt at that time and i probably wasn't thinking my best then and made a stupid mistake.a thousand aplogies won't erase the hurt i've caused but still.u know the truth and the reason behind why i acted so irrationally.even so,that is the truth and i'm glad i got it out even though it wasn't the best way to do it.i love u so much hun and i dun wanan lose u.i know it's to keep ur mand of that but u can't keep running cause it'll come up one day and u must be strong enough to face it.u could try to hand with the clique a bit more and i told u why already.ur not alone ok?we hhave always been here and u dun have to hang out with new people to not think bout that.i'm sorry for how i said it but the truth still stands.

Labels: feeling sick or something

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Pei hua and Yi jia



Tatty and alethea



Ten made this elephant,pig and face out of the plasticine that was meant for the activity-_-"





The pond



The group 'hard at work' haha



i dunno why i took a pic of this statue



Sammy



ME again=)




this is our group!!!



me and peihua=)



pei hua and sammy



me and ten



sam and ten

Labels: many many pics=)

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OMG TODDAYYY IS SO DAMN BLODDY FUN!!!

in the morning was sweating it out during the netball interclass competition,so yea we got trashed but we had so much fun=)
haha.we got 2nd for the frisbee interclass competition.whooo!!!!!lol.

anyways,after school was the learning journey at marina barage!=)
it was awesome,the breeze was so nice and the scenery there was amazing...speechless i tell u.couldn't take photos cause we got activities to do.haha but the facilitators were very friendly.

there was this guy who tried to figure out our names caue he saw we were twins and he was like 'amanda and amelia?or amanda and gabriella?' -_-"

lol.then we had to think of ways to make a ping pong ball sink and make a plasticine ball float.we had to do stuff with pythagoras theorem.YES AFTER OUR EXAMS R OVER,WE STILL HAVE TO DO MATH!!!!

anyways there was a tour of a gallery and there was kite flying and there was a lot a lot of wind=)

yesterday was a whole day of slacking,woke up at 12pm then eat lunch then around 5 plus i sleep again,woke up at 7 plus,go bath then eat dinner then watch dvd and slept more=D.i'm a pig i swear.haha

there was some drama today in school.BIG TIME.shan't elaborate.but we told her bout it and she said some sensible stuff actually haha.we had so much fun talking with with our teachers=).anyways dun worry bout it hun,it'll be alright,follow ur heart and it'll be fine.talk to you tomorrow bout it=)

plus plus plus.fuzz and fai nvr come today=(

anyways.about that thing.it's well....going alright,it's actually a bit better,keeping my mind occupied and life's getting better and funner bit by bit.dun wanna talk bout it.=)

Labels: they say these things last but i dun see how it can

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OMG i so screwed every paper.like seriously-_-but wtv now it's OVER AND TIME TO PLAY!!!ohhhh maybe i'll be piercing another 1 or 2 earholes tomorrow with sma and joash=)

haha ok today was dear brenda's house with sammy,ten and amira=D.so much fun i tell u.and i swear i'm not gonna watch a horror show with them anymore!!had lunch at kfc with the gals and then we were supposed to watch a movie,but got nothing nice soooooo we watched 'GOTHICA'.halle berry acted in it.ehhhh scary for me ok and the rest of them were covering their faces all the time too but the speakers were so damn loud hahaha.anyways left at bout 6 plus?headed to meet my family and ate dinner=)i love them to death lah.

last friday was coming home to sleep and all,sat was tuition,slacking and sun was mugging a math and chem,to no avail of course lol.monday was sleeping during my papers,i was like dead sleepy sooo i still slept like 1am that night cause today i only had to wakr up at 9.30 for math paper=D.it was ok...haha no it was terrible.

i started smsing him again,seems like he's reluctant to,he seems too busy,seems like he's irritated bout that thing.....eeessshhhh

B. dun worry bout him lah,if u r not happy then u should stop it,no use making urself unhappy right?dun worry i still luv ya=)

ok now to U.omg i dun even know why the hell would u think of saying something like that to me.u wanna make yourself feel better?well u can just forget bout it.nothing's gonna change between u and me cause there wasn't anything in the first place.y say things when u ain't doing nothing bout it?wtv.u seem so fake and we dun buy that shit sorry.

ok separate issure now.u still dun get it?well it's kinda obvious.even A. has noticed,that means it's not just me.get control of ur life,if not ur gonna screw it,just like how ur affecting mine,i have them.u have whoever u want to hang with.it's nothing against u so dun take it personally,just remember to observe others more.like what T. said,u have never been around for us,u dun care bout a damn thing UNLESS it concerns u.sorry to put it this way.i know i sound like a bitch but this is the truth,so you gotta face it.

i know i'll always have u gals,thank you so much for hearing me out the past week,after all i've been through,it's not a big problem and it's stupid to let it affect me,u r right,i shouldn't depend on them too much haha.
i love u all so much,u never fail to make my day,u never fail to make me laugh,u never fail to make me realise the truth.i'm so lucky to have all of u.u know what?maybe making new frens and moving on ain't such a bad thing after all.

i'm out=)

Labels: enemies, foes, frens, lost ones, what's the diff

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this is pics are from brenda's house=)

at brenda's club house



random chips,ones's huge,the other's super tiny and the last one's interlocked=)



sam's cream puff



my cream puff



brenda's cream puff






today was geog and chi p2,ok i guess.tomorrow's bio,

monday was boring school.

tue we skipped school to mug for exams=)

yesterday i WANTED to go school ok,but i didn't wake up,sooooo....we went to parkway and met vic and we all went to get mc together.haha so funny lah,then we met brenda and jason and i got my geog file!which i didn't use at all haha.then vic came our house to study,but sam and vic ended up sleeping-_-"but i studied!!!and it payed off for today's test=).i didn't do the whole graph qn but who cares lol.

today was sleeping during chinese paper and not finishing it hahahaha=D.gotta mug bio now!

Labels: take one step and turn around

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ok i dunno why but this week isn' going well.
i'm irritated with some people,with the way u acts,the way u talks,the way u changed.
why can't u realise that ur neglecting everyone for ur own sake?u have changed and i hope u realise it soon.u gotta figure ur own life soon.

ok getting on with reality,i can't remember what happened but on tuesday i went to ICC with sam,dylan,brad and got to know their fren alaina.she's from kc,but she's really nice=).after i ate a lot of ice cream,we went to T3 to TRY and study haha.i did a bit of chem ok!

on wednesday i went to brenda's house!it was awesome,her house is SUPER NICE ok!the interior design,the porch outside and OMG THE VIEW!it's breath taking!!!!haaha i ransacked her fridge=).oh and the awesomest thing is HOW we got to her house,we were driwen by _____,who's my age!a freaking 15 year old!haha brenda was like screaming all the way saying she doesn't wanna die then i sit in the front and say 'wow this fries is delicious'.haha cause we bought macs to eat=D.anyway we were supposed to study but i ended up sleeping with my head in the book and yea.went home at around 6?.great day=)

thurs was el paper!!!!i think it was alright,compre was tough,other than that nothing much i think...only remembered a retarded phone call with sam,fuzz,fai and fai's funny fren ahaha.

fri was ss and chinese paper 1,screwed both up,didn't do a 13 mark qn for ss and for chinese letter writing i was supposed to write about the good attitude and helpfulness of a TAXI DRIVER.butttt i had to misread it and i fucking wrote everything bout a BU DRIVER!!!!omg lah i felt like killing myself but wtv it's over.after school was brenda's house again!!!bout some chips.sushi,cream puffs,gosh was i full.haha i love brenda lah,she so funny,especially with her PRINCE.haha.oh ya she's teaching us a VERY SIMPLE piano song and i hope i can finsh it by the end of this year well because...secret=)

sat was tuition.i dunno why but i like tuition=)it helps ok!

then now i'm supposed to be getting ready to help with the children's day mass.so gtg post somemore next time!

oh ya lately i gotta know him.he's really funny,a tad wierd but nonetheless very interesting to talk to=)

Labels: if i told u the truth, would u listen

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